Tomorrow I am going to a leadership conference
Things are great.
However, I am petrified.
I am not scared of meeting friends.
I am not scared of messing up.
I am not scared of not learning.
I am scared of danger.
Am I the only one?
Being a room with many people is stressful enough.
Being in the town that just a had purge is stressful enough.
The possibility of danger is great.
What if I do get out?
Am I overreacting?
Am I underestimating the potential of danger?
My mind is pounding as much as my anxious heart.
I want to throw up.
I don’t want to go.
What if everything is alright?
What if my anxieties aren’t real?
Wait…anxiety is always real.
Maybe this is just fear trying to control me.
I won’t let it.
I will win.
But if I die or get hurt,
Is it worth it?
Is anything worth it anymore?